It was never ‘just for the moment’, I lied and now I’m just waiting on that moment I can hold him for more than what I wanted it to be. Wishing I had opened up when he gave me more than ‘just for the moment’.
I know this love is real because he constantly runs through my head and it hurts knowing he isn’t there for me to tell him how I really feel. I want to pick up the phone and call him to tell him I’m sorry, just to tell him the truth and that I really cared. Not If I could turn back the hands of time, but wanting to – wanting to spend the rest of my life with him and not ‘just for the moment’.
God sent him in my life to open my eyes showing me everything we had shared was real. To love this way shouldn’t be just another memory, not just another experience but something and someone I want to hold on to for the rest of my life.
I was scared of loosing you and just the thought had me even more scared of not loving this way again. A love so strong that I can’t deny or let go and I don’t want to… I could go on living in denial or close my eyes and picture myself in a world where you never existed, but once I open my eyes there you are in my thoughts, in my heart and in every tear drop that starts to flow. I want to block each memory we shared but I can’t and as much as I want to, the more I accept what we shared was real… Our love - our life; it is real. The value of us is worth more than any pearl or diamond in this world. It is you that I love and I know we belong together – Soul Mates.
P.S If this isn’t real tell me what is? This is more than Love etc…
Sometimes, when one person is missing, the whole world seems depopulated. ~Lamartine
By O’Jay –Maria Harris
Dedicated to A. Morris
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